Thursday, May 25, 2006

My mother is getting completely out of hand. Now she's hiring some guy to spy on me? What? So she can catch me doing something gay?

I mean, what does she expect to achieve by this? Is she so messed up by the idea that in the past sixteen years I might have dared to have a thought or an emotion or an opinion that I didn't run by her first that she wants to make sure it never happens again?

And this guy she's got tailing me - He isn't even very good at it. I mean, I saw him when I was talking to Will. That couldn't be part of the game plan.

Unless maybe my mother WANTS me to know that I'm being followed. Maybe she thinks it will make me "straighten" out and fly right.

This is all such a mind trip. I can't live like this. I'm not going to let her do this to me. I wish my Dad were home.

13 Comments:

Blogger Kim from Vegas said...

Ok - take a breath, Luke.

I think that's Damian following you or having you followed, checking up on you, etc.


But, you're still right that Lily is "out of hand". She totally needs to see a shrink!

3:04 PM  
Blogger Mary Cherry said...

Oh, hon, I love you so much. "I'm gay. Deal with it. If you can't, you go see that shrink."

Nice to see you standing up for yourself.

As for Rosemary, she's not having you followed. She would have had to think of something other than herself to even come up with the idea.

And too, hon, how many times do I have to tell you to just stay away from Jade? I mean, for real.

Of course, if she does stay all insane, conk her on the head and haul her off to the nuthouse. She really does need that electro-shock.

By the way, hon, you were wishing for your dad and that's sweet and all, but be careful what you wish for because you just may get it.

Kisses!

4:38 PM  
Blogger Karen Walker said...

Ha! Mary Cherry, you are too warped for words.

Lily needs electro shock!

Well, like I always say, I'd rather have a bottle in front of me than a frontal lobotomy!

4:45 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

Luke, I couldn't help but notice how hard it was for you to talk with your friends. You're still the same guy you were before you came out to your parents and Will. You just need to ask yourself what good would come of it if you came out to the next person? You can usually tell who'll be ok with it and who might not be. Remember, once you tell someone, you can't take it back, like you can't unring a bell. If you find yourself in a situation where everyone's talking about chicks, you don't have to lie and say how you'd like to get hooked up, just don't comment on the conversation. If one of your friends asks you outright, tell him the truth, but otherwise, you really don't need to feel forced to come out to everyone at once. After all, how many of them would come out to you without any solicitation? As for Lily, I agree that she's the one who needs to see a counselor. I know it's hard for you not to have her support, and that's because up to now, she's always been in your corner. But there will come a time when she'll come to terms with it. Patience, patience.

7:16 PM  
Blogger Alison Stewart said...

Luke,
I'm sure that your mom isn't having you followed....i refuse to believe that. I think you should be careful though, its probably that nutcase Jade, she is psycho. I hope things get better for you soon. If it is to much, you are always welcome to visit Seattle.

Karen????.....I don't think any of us want a frontal labotomy??? So i guess you do know a thing.....

9:17 PM  
Blogger Jake Tomas said...

Luke,
As a Christian I know that it is a sin for you to be the way you are. Don't believe a word that Damian or Jade say, and Luke if you think your parents need some space- I know some people in LA who run a huge Fashion House: perhaps you've heard of Forrester Creations, well anyway my wife Amy's cousin Brooke Logan-Forrester was just reinstated as CEO of the company and if you want I'll ask her to give you a job-might help you to clear your head.

5:02 PM  
Blogger Nic said...

Luciano...you have it all wrong.

11:02 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

Luke, two things. First, please put the brakes on the Angry Young Man attiude. Bitterness doesn't become you. I know you have cause to be p.o'ed, but you're more likeable as the wholesome, gay-next- door character. Next, congrats on your article in the June issue of Advocate. It's true that you're helping other teens and their families in dealing with coming out. You go, boy!

7:48 PM  
Blogger Kevin Sheffield said...

I had an article in XY back in the day.

Not that it mattered because I got blown up and no one noticed.

Eternally bitter, Kevin.

8:41 PM  
Blogger Marco Del Rossi said...

Hey! I had an article in The Advocate,too!

Small world, huh?

While I would rather not live my life in front of the whole world, I suppose it is helpful to others in similar situations to see they are not alone. Which is a good thing.

And I agree with poster Mark Spies, being angry all the time will get you nowhere fast. Neither will being depressed all the time or scared. Trust me on all counts.

Laterz and greetz from up North.

10:07 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

Aren't you running a little behind on your blogging, Luke? Must be because you're busy chatting with BioDad. I don't get it. Your parents are having a tough time with your coming out, so you take on this Mr. Badass persona. Then Damien, a man whom really you hardly know, re-enters your life, and in 20 minutes, you're ready to spill your guts to him. What is it about this guy that makes him such a charmer? The accent? You know you have a powerful ally in Lucinda, yet you don't go to HER for advice or even for encouragement. I suggest you ask her to tell you more about your Biodaddy before you start blindly confiding in him. If anyone will give you some honest answers, she will.

2:48 PM  
Blogger Mary Cherry said...

Luke, hon, I hope you're smarter than what you're acting. I mean, Ray Charles could see the con Rosemary and your biodad are running on you.

Now, I know they were once in love, but what is it with him wanting to enable her homophobic tendencies and ME! ME! ME! attitude. Come on, now. Damian told you it was all about her and not you. I'd say later days to all that jazz.

Speaking of your biodad, before you take any advice from him, tell him to spit those marbles out of his mouth so you can understand him! Who does he think he is? Mushmouth?

Also, hon, I agree with Mark that you should probably tone down the anger. Just a tad. Don't lose your edge.

I mean, I spent a lot of time angry at Mama Cherry and let me tell you, it won't make you anything but sad and bitter and that's not appealing at all.

Speaking of not appealing, neither are crowsfeet. Just look at Mushmouth. That's what you've got to look forward too if you let yourself get all insane with the agony. Go for the ecstasy, I say. And maybe Mushmouth should go for some Dramtically Different moisturizer at Clinigue.

Kisses, hon!

5:13 PM  
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