Tuesday, March 28, 2006

It's obvious I'm not cut out for this lying thing. You know how people say lying makes them sick? Well, in my case, really, I've been feeling like crap ever since I let Jade talk me into telling my parents we're a couple. Not that it's all her fault. I didn't have to go along. I could have looked my mom and dad right in the eye and said, "Hey, you know what? I'm gay, how's that for a late Christmas present?"

But I didn't.

Instead, I started lying and I've had no chance to give it up since. Now I can't sleep, my head hurts, my stomach is churning, I'm either too hot or too cold all the time and my back is killing me. This hole is just getting deeper and deeper with no end in sight, so any suggestion for digging my way out of it — hey, I'm all ears!

14 Comments:

Blogger Mark Spies said...

Hey Luke, First of all, I'm no doctor, but given your history, I'd have that kidney checked if were you. I think the stress of all this lying is taking a toll on it.
Secondly, you'll find out as you go through life that lying does NO good. It wastes time and energy and causes more damage than anything you're trying to cover up. Worst of all, whatever it is you're lying about ALWAYS surfaces sooner or later. People can tell you this over and over, but you really won't accept it until you find it out for yourself. I hope this happens for you soon. If you wait too long the consequences could be lethal for you. Besides, I think this whole thing is dragging on way too long. I'm starting to lose interest.

7:32 AM  
Blogger Nic said...

Luciano-

Best advice is to start telling the truth, trust me I know the whole feeling awful as you lie, then there are more lies to cover up the previous ones and you feel even worse, it's a horrible cycle.

Best thing to do in that case is no matter how hard it is start telling the truth.

And Mark-

Oh now, don't lose intrest...

10:47 AM  
Blogger h8ed boi said...

Sounds like menopause to me, Luke! But, I suppose, being a teenage boy you can't have that.

Could be the kidney acting up, like someone said, from stress.

In that case you ought to look into some methods of stress relief. Like a massage — Kevin owes you one! But maybe you'd like that too much.

You could always take the easy way out, and just tell your parents finally. But maybe that wouldn't be dramatic enough for you and you feel the need to be hospitalized first.

Whatever you choose to do, I'm sure it will be enthralling and thoroughly ridiculous.
I think you might be a little bit of an idiot.

Have a nice day!

Your alter-ego/alias/etc,
h8ed boi

4:45 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

OW! No wonder you're such a h8ed boi, but
your comments, although somewhat caustic, do have merit.

4:54 PM  
Blogger Mary Cherry said...

Hey, hon, I know I said I loved the gays, but no one loves a Drama Queen!

So, here's what: you can tell your folks you're a Friend of Dorothy let them and your dad, well both of them, if my crystal ball is any indication(yes, sometimes I turn to sorcery!)have a hemorrhage apiece and get on with their lives.

Or you could hold it all in, get sick, wind up in the hospital, linger a few days, run up a terrible bill and die.

Now come on, hon, really, what is the worse that can happen? You tell everyone you're gay and then what? You go upstairs to wax your skis and are never seen again?

On a personal note, though. I do hope you don't die because I'd hate to never see those tawdry, posturepedic lips of yours again.

Well, I'm heading out and praying hard for you.

Kisses!

5:10 PM  
Blogger Alison Stewart said...

Luke,
This news is really disturbing for me. I hope that you are doing ok and taking care of yourself, I know we are all hearing your parents go on about your kidney, but this sounds serious. Please be careful.

Now on the whole lying thing, I think my opinion my differ. There is nothing wrong with a harmless little lie when no one gets hurt, but in your case you are going to end up killing your mother with this one. I know that Jade is blackmailing you, but why would anyone believe that nappy haired girl?

Please promise me you will at least think about telling your parents or Kevin before you get yourself in any deeper.

much luv
Ali

9:26 PM  
Blogger Rose D'angelo said...

Luciano, I see that your pesky new kidney is acting up. Well, don't worry about it. You can still keep your secret, stress or no stress. If the kidney goes kaput, I happen to know that Jade is a compatible donor. Of course, she'll have her price...not necessarily money. Take care, kid. Aunt Rose

12:12 PM  
Blogger Vonnie691 said...

Luke Tell your Mom & Dad , write them a letter an leave it where they will find it ... Its not so personal plus you can always hide out an give them time to cool off or laugh about it... Considering your only telling them your gay , not that you have gotten someone pregnant , or have aids an are dying, Or your drinking again & doing drugs... In this day an age the teen of today are way more open about being Gay this is not hush hush anymore get with the times... Besides your Mother & Fathers characters did some pretty outragous stuff when they were the same age as you ... Give them some credit they might be old but they aint dead !!! The will understand

12:46 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

Luke, It's amazing how you get so close to telling your folks the truth, only to be interrupted at the last second. I've witnessed this at least 4 times so far. It's getting very old. Heck, even Jade wanted you to get it overwith. If you keep this up, you'll lose your new kidney, your mother will lose the baby, and ATWT will lose viewers.

2:26 PM  
Blogger Nic said...

You had to kiss her...I feel bad for you.

And yes I am starting to agree with Mark there...

7:41 AM  
Blogger pH said...

Luke, you need to come clean in a big way! i think miss Jude is taking you for a ride and you are blindsided by that! no one is a perfect human and your choices are great so far, but dont sell yourself short by faking a relationship, just to keep people from making assumptions. that is wrong and not true to yourself! i hope you will find happiness and i dont want to sound harsh, but it is what i believe is true.

1:23 AM  
Blogger pH said...

Luke, you need to come clean in a big way! i think miss Jude is taking you for a ride and you are blindsided by that! no one is a perfect human and your choices are great so far, but dont sell yourself short by faking a relationship, just to keep people from making assumptions. that is wrong and not true to yourself! i hope you will find happiness and i dont want to sound harsh, but it is what i believe is true.

1:23 AM  
Blogger Rose D'angelo said...

ph, Looks like what you say bears repeating! As for you Luke, you're my nephew and I love you but I don't like the person you're turning into. This whole gay identity crisis is making you angry, confused, very hostile toward your folks, and a humongous liar. None of these traits belonged to the Luciano I once knew. There's still time to get the happy, healthy, wholesome Luke back, but it involves taking the big step of coming out. If there's anything left of you inside that mixed-up shell, you will still be able to summon up the courage you need to do it. If you wait too long, it will only get harder to do. In fact, there may come a point of no return for you. I hope it doesn't go that far. And for God's sake, stop listening to that harlot Jade!

8:03 PM  
Blogger Anthony Williams said...

Okay, people, calm down, it's a soap opera. Things move somewhat slowly all the time and then, right when it appears the truth will come out, someone falls, screams, or whatever dramatic interruption hasn't been used in a while. I should know, I watch Passions, and it used to be a LOT slower than this.
To be honest, "Luke," I'm right there with you, it'll be interesting to see who beats who to the punch...

9:01 PM  

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