Friday, March 03, 2006

Every time I imagined saying the words out loud, every time I imagined admitting that I was in love with Kevin, I'd hear me saying the words in my head, and then everything would just stop, it'd freeze like a video-tape got stuck in the machine or hitting pause on your DVD player. Because I couldn't imagine what would come next. It was like the world coming to an end. News Bulletin: Luke Snyder Comes Out of the Closet and Universe Implodes.

But it didn't turn out like that at all. When I told Jade about Kevin, the words just came out of me. I'd been lying for weeks now, so saying something I knew for a fact to be true was finally a relief.

Jade didn't even look too shocked. I guess she suspected it all along, which is why she asked me in the first place, but having her take it so easily... I didn't even know I'd been holding my breath, waiting for her reaction, until she didn't freak out and I could breathe again.

I told her I was in love with Kevin. That made it real. It's not a secret anymore. It's a fact. I love Kevin. It's really happening.

22 Comments:

Blogger Nic said...

Luciano-

Very happy for you, it's great that you could finally admit it, it's a great thing right? And Jade, she seems to great for you to confide to. But you you have alot to face with this...such as your father, and Kevin himself. Best of luck!

12:52 PM  
Blogger Mary Cherry said...

Well, I just want to say, on the record, that I love the homosexuals! I mean, without them, who would make my designer fashions?

You've faced something about yourself that informs your whole personality. That's a very big step. But, be warned, hon, the road to love is a bumpy one. Just ask anyone around you.

One more thing, Cousin Jade is quite the little liar, isn't she? She's a quick thinker. It makes me wonder what else she might be lying about.

Anyway, God bless you Luke and God bless Tom Ford.

Viva La Vie Boheme!

1:29 PM  
Blogger Bianca Montgomery said...

I remember what it's like to fall in love with a friend.

I just hope your relationships don't end up like mine. Laura was ready for the funny farm, Frankie was killed and it took forever for Maggie to decide I was the one she wanted.

But, you know what? It was worth it.

Lots of love.

1:47 PM  
Blogger Lucy Montgomery said...

Luke,

I hope everything works out. Just stay true to yourself and be happy.

Love,
Lucy

8:15 AM  
Blogger Sandy Hatfield said...

I think you're from Oakdale.. not Oakdlae

6:22 PM  
Blogger Alison Stewart said...

Luke?
Your gay?
And in love with this Kevin person?

I feel so left out of the loop up here in Seattle

8:41 PM  
Blogger Kim Toussaint said...

You were so sweet to watch....I'm looking forward to seeing what happens with you and Kevin.

10:57 PM  
Blogger Lily Snyder said...

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12:46 PM  
Blogger Nic said...

Richard-

You sound like Bridget.

12:59 PM  
Blogger Alison Stewart said...

Richard,
Who are you? You sound messed up.

Luke don't listen to richard, he is crazy

2:22 PM  
Blogger Mark Spies said...

Luke, Don't trust Jade. That girl has her own agenda. Come out to Emma. She's had enough kids to know how to handle it!

3:31 PM  
Blogger Lily Snyder said...

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4:30 PM  
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4:37 PM  
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4:44 PM  
Blogger Nic said...

Richard-

Yes, I am speaking of her...and still. Holden and Luciano? That seems slightly wrong...lol. His real father or not...the guy raised him.

5:03 PM  
Blogger Mary Cherry said...

You know, Nic, I'm with you on this.

What's up with all these incest pervs?

Well, Lily did marry her uncle/cousin/farmboy, so I guess those Jordache jeans could run in the family.

Still, eww.

5:13 PM  
Blogger Nic said...

Mary-

Eh, Lily and Holden ain' really blood (it's like everyone is related in Oakdale...but not for real...). But still can't get the 'He's Luciano's father figure' out of my head.

That and Holden is straight...so yeah.

6:11 PM  
Blogger Alison Stewart said...

ok, all of yo people is messeded up. Sorry to have to go all ghetto on you, but you are talking about my soon to be inlaws, and i don't think i could stomach inlaws where father and son are a couple, that is just over the edge disturbing

6:16 PM  
Blogger John Seip said...

Luke-

I know you must be scared. I have been where you are.

Even though I am wary of Jade, I do agree you need to be honest with Kevin.

I am sure it will go fine. Just be honest. Your a good kid.

9:14 PM  
Blogger B.Ho said...

Wassup?

You know, you all is a bunch of wackjobs.

Wat wit all this foolin wit yo daddy bizness? You all ready for the Springer show.

And you need to lay off mah sista Jade. I know where she comin' from.

laterz.

1:24 PM  
Blogger KB said...

Just one question, Luke, why do you spell your name Luke instead of Luc since your real name is Lucianno? Hmmm?

3:31 PM  
Blogger BennettMarco said...

Because he's gay!

7:39 PM  

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